Baldy. baldy over there.............

Here we are then, the look for the summer, had a bad reaction to the Chemo, Anti-Sickness Drugs, Steroids and White Blood Count Drugs this time, in bed for 7 days! Horrendous, but I feel much better right now - Typical, 3 days to the next Chemo!!! D

Going, going, gone!!

Well 1st July saw the first of my hair loss and yesterday (Jon's Birthday!!) Its all gone, I look like a thug!!! Just need the biker boots now ! Its a bit strange, a bit cold but glad the weather is warm anyway, will post some pics when I draw the strength/courage! D

The Calm Before the Storm!

Well apologies firstly for there being such a gap in my posts, truth is we have just been playing a waiting game, waiting for the Chemo to start.

It didn’t start within 2 weeks but 4 and a half, due to the drugs trial I am going on - I am taking Avastin alongside the standard Chemo of FEC-T but will take the Avastin (drip every 3 weeks) for a whole year! Its new to Primary Cancer Treatment, thought its used in Secondary Cancer so it can only be a good thing. The surgery has healed nicely and I was almost back to full strength! Thanks so much for all your good wishes again!

Chemo started today, a couple of hours of Intravenous injection of poisons into my blood stream, I think the fear was worse than the actual procedure and now this must be the calm before the storm, 2 hours later I am feeling fine, but tired (off for a nap!) but expect the Nausea to hit later on today!! Joy. Taking bets on how long it will be before my hair falls out – Favourite is 2 weeks, Evens 3 weeks; 2-1 Four Weeks PLACE YOUR BETS!

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So the Chemo will start within 2 weeks, best get as much shopping in as possible before that!! It's pretty good timing really, Race testing tomorrow, followed by the biggest meet of the season next weekend, then I'll be all set!!

A Funny

A very flat-chested girl finally decided she needed a bra and set out to the mall in search of one in Her size. She entered an upscale department store and approached the saleslady in lingerie, "Do you have a size 28AAAA bra?" The clerk haughtily replied in the negative, so she left the store and proceeded to another store where she is rebuffed in much the same manner. After a third try at another department store in the mall, she had become disgusted. Leaving the mall, she drove to K-Mart. Marching up to the sales clerk, she unbuttoned and threw open Her blouse, yelling, "Do you have anything for this?" The lady looked closely at Her and replied, "Have you tried Clearasil?"

Busty Blonde with Silicone too!!

Today I went a bit blonde! Literally!! Figured that if my hair is going to fall out in the very near future, I couldn’t really mess up with colour for very long! Bottled out of going full peroxide, but might save that for next week!

I am also in receipt of a nice silicone right-boob, its lurvlee and I can’t stop feeling it! Trouble is, its still bigger than my left one!!!

Good News!

Well the news is good here! The tumour (which measured 23mm) that was removed had a good lining of healthy matter around it and the lymph nodes that were removed were cancer free too! That means that the Chemo and Radiotherapy that I will have are just an added way of ensuring that we have got to every last bit of this little invader! I am feeling OK, and as expected (and warned by some friends having similar surgery), the lymph node removal has caused me much more discomfort than the actual mastectomy, my arm feels like there is no skin on it at the top, very much like the sensation I had with shingles a few years ago, I understand it to be the nerve endings finding new friends and paths etc.

......and THANKYOU very much EVERYONE for all your good wishes!!

So! Round 1 all done and dusted! I was back home Saturday and recuperating very well with much help from Lizzie, Simon and Jon, (couldn’t have done it without you Lizzie!) I am relieved of the tumour and just waiting for everything to heal before starting the Chemo sometime in June!

Still – the smallest false boob that the hospital had is still too big for me (Sod’s law the tumour was in my bigger one!!) So I am improvising with various chicken fillets, socks, sponges…………

I’m not allowed to lift anything (iron, vacuum cleaner, saucepan, kettle, shopping especially) and I have that in writing! But must each lots of chocolate, its good for my sugar levels!

I feel a right tit tonight! - For the last time in a long while !!! Off for the op in the morning and looking forward to many hours to sleep it off! I'll be offline for a while as I don't think we are wireless in the hospital yet, and its in the middle of the country so my phone doesn't have great reception either! Will resume Blog posts shortly! Thanks again EVERYONE for your good wishes and support x x (Spare a thought for Jon (and Lizzie and Simon - thankyou guys) busy looking after Francesca this weekend!

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I must have done something seriously BAD in a past life, the site I was using to host my Blog, along with our Racing Gallery and Francesca's photos, has gone BUST!!! (Bust!!) So welcome to my new Blog Page!

IRONY

Irony is
Breast Cancer in an ‘A’ cup chest!!! BAD TIMES;

Big Earrings being in Fashion (good with no hair) GOOD TIMES;

Jon’s mum buying me a headscarf on her holidays (with no clue of my condition!) GOOD TIMES;

Staying in a hotel this weekend, (the weekend before my surgery), with themed rooms, ours was the “Countess of Oxford” with her picture on the door (see above)!!!!!! BITCH

Talk about kicking a girl when she is down!!!!!!!!!

BOOBLESS

Remember at school, you typed in 55378008 into your calculator and then turned the calculator upside down!!!! (C'mon you ALL did it)

May you think of me everytime you use a calculator!

C is for.....

So I’ve got Cancer; Breast Cancer, or Invasive Ductal Carcinoma if you want it's Sunday name! Further in technical terms its triple negative (not hormone related), aggressive, stage 3, or in simple terms; the size of a golf ball, which, in that little ‘A’ cup of mine is relatively large, so there is no option but to remove the breast – A mastectomy…..this week, followed by chemo and radiotherapy to zap the surrounding tissue to get it all out.

The good news is, it hasn’t spread, although its aggressive (and therefore I will have to have all the lymph nodes removed as well) I am all clear everywhere else; which is a huge relief and allowed only for a very brief period of thoughts of mortality; besides Francesca is far too young to be remotely sympathetic to my little problem, and she remains as high-maintenance as ever! (Quite right too!) Jon and I are being as positive as possible, there is no other option really, it’s here, it needs to go and that’s all there is to it. I can’t feel any other way because there isn’t any mileage in it. It does feel surreal, but perhaps that is a good thing, its much easier this way to take it all as it comes, its all happened so quickly ( I found a lump about 8 weeks ago).

Am I scared? Of course, but mainly of the pain of the surgery and therapies, but my friend Gary tells me that pain doesn’t hurt so that’s nothing to worry about! I’m also scared of missing out on doing the things we are supposed to do with our baby girl in her first year. That just about sums it up really, forgive the forthcoming blurb that I will be pouring out here............